I try so hard to figure out what I should do
but itâs true
Iâm brought up this way and I donât it know any other way
And itâs not
Itâs not a matter of putting the blame on someone else
Iâve got to many things inside my head Iâm about to collapse
And I guess that if I drink too much
Iâll just have to drink some less
Itâs not a fantasy
the devilâs got a hold of me
and it doesnât get much lonelier
than waiting by the phone
