it only works if I know enough about you to pierce your heart,
your soul, and if you've pierced mine
It only works if you've touched me soft with patterns of trust
I disengage the bond if my paranoia seeps to the surface like vomit
Why do you even bother?
It happens when I hate myself to the bone
Broken mirror I feel alone
Did you ever wonder if I smiled at home away from your prying eyes?
Did you ever wonder if I smiled at home away from my worldly disguises?
Deep thought crushes me with bombs and ill-will feeds on
interpretation until I'm inhuman, a beast
I resent you for your cold streak
Backwards I walk, talk, and think
I lose myself in a cradle of a sadistic hate
I slowly shake
It rings in my blood, and I salivate like a chorus of cats in heat,
for the slightest contact, with my sharp long looks and calls
I starve for attention
I run from myself towards a wall
There's no escaping me, I jump and stall
Your hand still clutching my ankle,
I viciously let go with thoughts, yells, rivers, translations of my life from hell,
in the split second before the concrete smashes my face
They cut you deeply I smell your blood like a fiend, and reach even deeper,
I masturbate mentally with the strange power pain has blessed me with
I can't stop until you hit the floor
My arms I hold out, I let you fall thru them
Secretly smiling I bring you down to my level of broken-ness
We're such dragons
Maybe if I loved myself more I could stand to look myself in the eyes
and wipe away those sharp tears
I could blow you away, for how you hurt me
You lock yourself in a path, if you feel I don't translate into your language at the time
I needed you immensely
Stuck to your guns, you watched from outside
I was melting
Now shuffled by the world you reach out for sympathy?
With my eyes I remind you of scars only seen by God,
who keeps account of each souls pain by weighing the bags that have grown so big,
they almost block my vision
I want to fuck you over with each decision
I'm an animal when I feel unnoticed, unaccepted by those I build homes for in my heart
Wrecked I check myself into your mind, and you do the same at the same time
We recklessly crash thru memories spilling them in bursts, like long-held desire
We hesitate then reach for each other
Time instantly pauses
Stuck leaning forward, our position slowly spins 360 degrees
I see the thoughts in the back of your mind,
the same way I see my crimes against your spirit
I smell you bloody as guilt tints my vision towards reality,
I see the one of your tears inches from the floor
I lunge, grab it, it glistens stuck in the air
Then hide it from the world's stare
We're such dragons
(You know I love you)
We're such dragons
